This Dark Road

This Dark Road

This road is looking all too familiar

The signs are still the same here

And so is the pain that lives here

God, I remember how much I hate it here

I try to turn back

But all I feel is a pull; an attack

I end up slipping in a hole

How the hell did it get so cold?

I can hear myself

Like I’m outside my self

Just screaming

“Get up! For f*ck sake don’t stay down!

You’ve been down

You can end it now

But there’s too much fight in you

There’s a light inside of you

I know you feel it

I know you can hear it

You’re heart is bleeding

And you can’t stop the screaming

The pain is from mourning

And you can’t stop it in its glory

It’s going to take everything you ever had

Everything you ever cared for

To create a tourniquet

Big enough to stop the bleeding

A power

Strong enough to stop the screaming

But it’s all inside you

It is

YOUR darkness you face

And it is

YOUR own strength you must embrace

It is

YOUR demons you must fight down

And it is

YOUR faith you need to surround you now”

And I get it

I finally f*ckin get it

This damn road have been calling my name

Blindly I follow

Thinking that maybe in a lifetime it will change

But it remains the same

The bodies still riddle the sideline

Infecting it with a finality that is quite life like

When you scream within yourself

And you need help

When you realize that the road is desolate

The façade of its beauty had finally fallen

And your tears stream down in tiny droplets of blood

Like the festering life inside you

And you swallow on your emotions

And you scream out “f*ck it”

This is the life style you have to lead

And you can either choose to leave

Or stay here and bleed

And the life you would leave behind is too great

And the life you leave behind is filled with too much pain

And you feel a pull in two different directions

And you just want to stop

Just want to stop

Stop!

Screaming!

And you wake up

And you’re still breathing

And you thank God that your heart isn’t bleeding

And you realize that it was all a dream

And still

Ever so quietly

Your soul screams

And you know it will sneak up on you again

And again you will fight it to the very end

--E.G. Flores