This Dark Road
This road is looking all too familiar
The signs are still the same here
And so is the pain that lives here
God, I remember how much I hate it here
I try to turn back
But all I feel is a pull; an attack
I end up slipping in a hole
How the hell did it get so cold?
I can hear myself
Like I’m outside my self
Just screaming
“Get up! For f*ck sake don’t stay down!
You’ve been down
You can end it now
But there’s too much fight in you
There’s a light inside of you
I know you feel it
I know you can hear it
You’re heart is bleeding
And you can’t stop the screaming
The pain is from mourning
And you can’t stop it in its glory
It’s going to take everything you ever had
Everything you ever cared for
To create a tourniquet
Big enough to stop the bleeding
A power
Strong enough to stop the screaming
But it’s all inside you
It is
YOUR darkness you face
And it is
YOUR own strength you must embrace
It is
YOUR demons you must fight down
And it is
YOUR faith you need to surround you now”
And I get it
I finally f*ckin get it
This damn road have been calling my name
Blindly I follow
Thinking that maybe in a lifetime it will change
But it remains the same
The bodies still riddle the sideline
Infecting it with a finality that is quite life like
When you scream within yourself
And you need help
When you realize that the road is desolate
The façade of its beauty had finally fallen
And your tears stream down in tiny droplets of blood
Like the festering life inside you
And you swallow on your emotions
And you scream out “f*ck it”
This is the life style you have to lead
And you can either choose to leave
Or stay here and bleed
And the life you would leave behind is too great
And the life you leave behind is filled with too much pain
And you feel a pull in two different directions
And you just want to stop
Just want to stop
Stop!
Screaming!
And you wake up
And you’re still breathing
And you thank God that your heart isn’t bleeding
And you realize that it was all a dream
And still
Ever so quietly
Your soul screams
And you know it will sneak up on you again
And again you will fight it to the very end
--E.G. Flores
